A Picture of Thousand Words

Should a picture speaks a thousand words...

OR

More than Words...

Restu dalam hidup

It can be a complicated or easy topic to be discuss when talking about 'blessings'...
especially when it involve your parents blessings in your life...
As we know, after obeying to respect and get our parents blessings in everything that we do in life is the second most important thing that Allah has told us...
For a son / a daugther not to apprecite and realize how much their parents has sacrifice for them, is a total idiot and blind person...

But sometimes, things really get complicated when it involves your feelings and desire, to what your parents wishes you to do in ths very short life that we're living in...

My story...

I think compared to my friends, my parents are at 1/3 or their life... I realize that...
And that at anytime, Allah could take them away from me... The two being that I love and apppreciate the most in my life (T_T)... Tp mak, ayah, ed belum puas hidup dgn mak dan ayah.... ed belum dapat cukup nasihat dan tunjuk ajar untuk menghadapi cabaran hidup yang kian mencabar ini... Maafkan ed di atas segala dosa yang telah ed buat pada maj dan ayah... Sebagai anak, kdg2 ed ed sendiri tak tahu kenapa susah sgt utk ed merendahkan dahi memohon keampunan dari ayahanda dan bonda... ed pon sendiri tak faham dan semakin lama ed menunggu, semakin kurang hari yg telah takdir tentukan untuk kita semua...
Abg long, Kak ida, klo abd dgn akak tgh baca post ni, bg lah mak dgn ayah baca jgk ek...
Klo ed susah meluahkan perasaan hati ed dgn kata2, mungkin ed lebih senang meluahkan nya dgn cara sebegini...
Ayahanda Bonda, maafkanlah dosa dan kesilapan anakanda yg telah banyak anakanda lakukan selama ini...

Walau apapun keputusan yg anakanda ambil kini, restu dari ayahanda dan bonda tetap tidak anakanda lupakan... Walaupun sering kali kemahuan anakanda menentang arus yg ayahanda bonda mahu anakanda susuri... Dan kini, kemahuan yg anakanda batasi ini bnyk memberikan kesan pada anakanda... Anakanda faham sebab2 mengapa ayahanda bonda akan memberikan reaksi sebegitu, tetapi, apakan daya... Anakanda tidak lagi boleh menanggung beban ini keseorangan...

Walaubagaimanapun, restu dari ayahanda bonda tetap anakanda pinta...

Tanpa dirimu berdua, siapalah anakanda hari ini....
kerana dirimu telah mencorakkan peribadi anakanda kini...

Tanpa restu darimu berdua, akan hilang keberkatan hidup anakanda didunia ini
kerana restu dan kasih sayangmu, membawa ke syurga...

The Past...

-My past haunts me -
-My past wants to repeat itself -
-The past, no one would care -
-Let alone understand why -
-Remember, ur actions affect others -
-Either u realize t or not-
-It's always there-
-Cause & Effect-
-My past is the cause-

- I'm going back to be ME again is, -
-The Effect-

Big One!!

ak tuliz menda nih ASA ak lpz cakap tepon gado beso dgn dy...
well, kali ni gado paling besonyer...
mm, xtau la ak pe lg yg ak harus wat...
yup2, bler difikirkan blek(wlopon org kata lelaki ego beso), ak tau ak sedikit sebnyk bersalah...
tp camne ek...
ak xde sedikit perasaan pon nk tipu dy...
i'm juz being me...
and i know it's hard for me to shake off my internet social life...
mm, how to get this through.... well, we make mistakes in our life... all of us do...
niway, a relationship should'nt be always sweet like honey...
klo xde, xde la corak kehidupan itu sendiri...
tu pandangan positif ak terhadap setiap yg terjadi dlm hidup...
hidup itu kan roda, sekejap kat atas, sekejap kat bwn tp most of the time kat tgh2...
and, skrg ni, ak rse bersalah...
sbb wat dy rse begitu...
puncanyer??
mcm2 ak rse...
mybe it's me...
mybe it's her...
mybe it's what I've done to her...
mybe it's what she's done to me...

ermm, ak benar2 buntu camne nk luahkan menda nih...
nnt ak cube tuliz lg dlm post laen...
but, utmost everything, I hope she knows what's my feelings for her...

regards,
ed